Showing Up

Being consistent is something that I struggle with. This is because I tend to look for deep motivation or an emotional/physical need to do something every time that I am supposed to do it.

I do find it sometimes on the surface, sometimes digging deep, and sometimes by allowing time for it to surface. But, more often than not, there’s nothing inside. That’s one of the reasons I have not been able to persist on multiple initiatives in the past.

What I have found helpful in crossing this bridge is to just show up if the direction aligns with my values, irrespective of the motivation for the day. It’s hard to always be in a mindset of thinking strategically and to keep linking the daily chores with the what and why on a continuous basis. The cycle of the highs and lows of active motivation is sometimes long.

And to drop doing something which I picked after careful evaluation with my long term thinking mindset running, is a bit detrimental. What I have found is that just going through a checklist of daily tasks can work wonders not only when there is no active motivation, but also when life is rough or just moving at an overwhelming pace.

Although, I try to build a sacred space and time in a week where I review whether the aggregated learnings are pointing towards something not working as I intended it to, and maybe the lack of motivation is justified and not showing up is the right thing to do.